:: RESTLESS MIND ::

I CAN'T SLEEP.. I CAN'T SLEEP..
I NEED HELP HERE..
I CAN'T SLEEP....

It's like 1am and for some unexplainable reason I can't sleep.. My body is Restless.. I think I have a disease or something.. I have to go to a sleep doctor.. I have like four nights in a row that I can't sleep.. My mind just keeps on going and going.. It like never stops.. and I just don't understand why.. I'm in a perfectly normal state.. I'm tired.. I wanna sleep.. but when I go into the damn covers and I close my eyes, my fuckin' mind just won't shut off.. arrffph!!.. It's pissing me off!!.. Shit!!... So anyways.. since I couldn't put my mind to rest and enter dreamworld, I decided to take some of the load off.. Since I can't get it any other way.. umph!!.. So here I am at 1:11am on a Saturday night, when I should be out dancing, trying to empty my mind in order to find some decent sleep..

So tonight's slide show is gonna be a random nameless topic really.. I'm just gonna jot down everything that comes to mind in form of a things-to-do list.. Here I GO!!...

Tag names.. Names.. names..

I feel lost.. I feel restless.. I'm tired..

I need help
Helpless
Colorless
Crossing Over (hmm..)
Unreachable Grounds
Insecure
Uncontrollable Vibes
Questionable Mistakes
Eatable Questions
Forbidden Writings (if they're forbidden why are they written..) (I don't get that)
Broken Thoughts..

Colors.. colors.. Green.. Greenable Balance.. Balance.. Emotional Balance..

Almost Normal
Not quite there..
Behind Curtains..
Are we there yet?...
Crashed
Blind.. How would it feel to be blind?..

::INNER THOUGHT::
if we were all blind, we would then be able to have real feelings.. and feel real things.. love each other by how we are.. and not superficially.. like we do now.. Why do we do that?.. Why are we so evil?.. Why are we satisfied with so little?.. Why don't we see beyond the eyes of the exterior and take a deeper look?.. .. Why are we all so normal?..
I hate normal...
Normal for me doesn't exist..
It shouldn't exist.. it's officially discarded...

[thinking] [pic of a brown poker table in my mind] [group of men united]
Mafia
Tobacco
Shootable Aim
Mind Poker
-- PAUSE --

My wishes.. I wish so many things.. I desire so many things.. I want so many things.. I need to get so many things.. I really need ONE THING!!.. [stopped to think].. [hmm..].. [ok back to writing]...

I want...

Super Natural Powers
X-Ray Vision
Linguistic Vibes
Mental Tactic Abilities

I feel :: Hazed :: Dazed :: Wazed ::

:think: think: think:

Outside the Box
Chocolate Box
Jack in the Box
Toy Box

- Got up.. went and thought about smoking a cigg.. did a couple of circles-
- Came Back-

I have to sit down and analyze myself.. seriously.. I think I have a problem here.. Why on earth am I writing a load of shit down at almost 2:00 in the morning in a fuckin' internet blog.. I mean HAVE I NO LIFE!!!.. What is going on?!!.. OMG!!.. Ok..ok.. ok.. (breathing in.. closing eyes.. breathig in.. while typing..) [thinking:: I must have issues.. what are people gonna think.. why am I doing this.. Why can't I sleep... Why? Why? Why? [thinking: I know why.. but why?.. why me?] [hmmm.. I have todo something..] [think] [think] [think]

GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!

- Got up and thought about making a phone call ..walked around in circles..
[thinking:: why me.. Why.. Why me.. Why... ]
[damn.. damn.. damn.. ]

AHH!!! -nevermind-

waited a while.. paused..

cel rang.. hmm.. who could it be.. NOOOO!! Ok.. freaky...

-TALKING- ::hung-up::

:: I FOUND SLEEP ::