BEHIND CLOSED DOORS: August 2005

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:: I PUT THAT MANGO IN MA POCKET ::

-CONFESIONS OF A DELUSIONAL MIND SOME TIME
AFTER MIDNIGHT ON A FRIDAY NIGHT-

-TO NETO.. MY LATIN MANGO LOVER-

We all say..and think for that matter that in order to move on with our lives and erase the old.. change is the answer.. which is actually true..

For example dying your wonderful hair with splashes of mango flavor. -like pame-..
Getting some decent closure.. Or just hitting the delete button.. and just moving onnn..

I have tried about all of these.. except for the mango.. which I really should start considering.. and let's just say.. that it's not overated.. they kinda do have their inner magic..

Well let's just say that I have found another way to move on and have peace.. People just do like I do and transform!!.. Yes!!.. You have read clearly.. Transform!!.. Like I did.. People let it be known.. worldwide.. that I am no longer miss natz.. oh no!!.. never more!!..

I AM NOW MISS KUNFU NATZ - THE NINJA KANGAROO-

-THIS IS ACTUALLY THE VERY LITTLE OF THAT NIGHT I REMEMBER.. WELL AT LEAST ABOUT THAT INCIDENT-

SOME TIME AFTER MIDNIGHT UNDER THE MOONLIGHT WITH SOME HEAVY FOGGED BEATS ON THE BACKGROUND

-THE POWERFUL NINJA KANGAROO WAS CREATED-

-TO NETO.. THE EXOTIC TROPICAL FLAVOR-

-THERE IS A HIDDEN MESSAGE IN ALL OF THIS.. WHAT IT IS.. IT'S HIDDEN.. FIGURE IT OUT-

- Details of this post or how it was created are unknown to my knowledge.. the only real sustained witness of this act has been executed from the instant this post was created.. please ask no questions about it.. for I REALLY DON'T KNOW.. and really don't understand..

just a thought that came to mind..

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::ADVICE OF THE DAY::
NEVER EAT TOO MUCH.. OTHERWISE YOU'LL START THINKING THINGS
AND WON'T BE ABLE TO SLEEP
OVERDOSE OF FOOD DOES CAUSE YOU TO HALLUCINATE
BELIEVE ME IT HAS HAPPENED
BY THE WAY IT HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME
-THIS IS JUST A THOUGHT..
IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY
MYSTERIOUS INCIDENT OF THIS MORNING
-I JUST WOKE UP WITH THIS IN MY HEAD FOR SOME STRANGE REASON-
-ALONG WITH SOME OTHER THINGS-
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:: BEEP.. 123.. BEEP.. ::

5:13am- Once again for last 3 hours I role about underneath my light pointless sleep..

5:27am- Sleep.. I need SLEEP.. ZzzZzzz..
5:43am- Static arrises within me.. It just won't shut off..
6:15am- I hear from afar this weird roster.. I think it was dying..
6:23am- I get up real quick.. cuase I really really dont wanna be late.. I look at the clock.. ok I got 10 min.. just 10 more min..
6:45am- Oh shit!.. I'm gonna be late!!
6:46am- I enter the shower.. I let the cold drops slide down my body.. umm.. How goooood it feels =)
6:59-7:08am- I manage to get dressed and finally figure out what I want to wear.. orange..
7:09am- I sit on my bed and space out thinking blank..
7:15am- My mother calls me and snaps me out of my daze.. They made french toast for breakfast..
7:16am- I'm not really hungry.. but I eat.. for my sake..
7:30am- My grandma walks out of the room with her rollers on looking all confused..
7:32am- I step out of the dining room and finsh getting ready.. for some odd reason I have a this wierd beep in my head..
7:40am- I turn on the computer.. and read the "message" again.. for one last time..
7:43am- I turn around.. confused.. I look in the mirror.. what is this?
7:45am- I stare blankly at myself.. I enter a tunel through my fucked up pupils..
7:48am- I hear my mother calling me. she's pist cause I left the toaster on..
7:52am- I sit down.. and stare blankly at the floor..
8:02am- My mother walks in the room.. and asks me for one of my clips.. I dont answer.. she just takes it..
8:05am- I get up.. I have to move on.. It's a better day now..
8:06am- I look at the "message" again.. I drift off..
8:09am- I look around the room.. Maybe I should stay..
8:10am- I look at the bed.. it looks awfully cozy.. the covers are still unmade..
8:12am- I step towards the bed.. I lay on it.. looking up at the cieling.. - IT's Time -
8:15am- My bedroom door opens.. they give me the signal..
8:16am- I look back at the closed door.. and begin to think.. "maybe I should stay"
8:17am- I get up.. I'm going to move on..
8:18am- I sit back down.. I stare at the message..
8:19am- A tear runs down my face..
8:20am- I'm determined.. I'm going to move on..
8:25am- I hit -delete- and stare blankly at the screen.. it's gone.. its's finally gone..
8:27am- I breathe in and out heavily.. I clear all the archives.. there's no trace now.. it's empty..
8:30am- I'm FREE.. I smile.. for the first time in months I SMILE..
8:31am- I look at the clock.. I'm late once again..
8:33am- I look at my watch.. stare at my pillow.. unhook the covers.. "maybe I should stay"..
8:35am- I'm gonna stay..
8:36am- I softly hit the pillows.. I'M FREE AND AT PEACE..
8:3........- I drift off.. I'M AT PEACE.. I FINALLY FOUND SLEEP..

IT'S FEELS GOOD TO BE BACK =)

:: A LITTLE TASTE OF HEAVEN ::

AY DIO MIO!!!. AY AY!!!..

Señores let me just say that I have found heaven.. I reached inner climax.. the greatest mouth waterin' orgasm ever!!.. QUE POLLO K TABA BUENO!!!

Ay mi madre!!.. pero dios mio.. no no.. era una cosa increible.. Mi abuela querida del alma.. una de las personas k mas quiero en esta vida me cocino unos chicken tenders hoy.. oh my!!.. Es verdad k en realidad soy adicta al pollo.. pero quiero k este bien claro k aunque soy fanatica de tal no significa k me comere cualquier pollo k cocinen.. ni de cualqueir manera.. OH NO!!.. I'm very picky.. y muy pocas veces me veran comentando sobre tal.. muy muy pocas.. pero este pollo.. esos chicken tenders de mi adorada abuela estaban exquisitos!!.. it was perfect.. jugoso.. with tenderness.. and just the right seasoning.. y como k no taba ni muy tostado.. ni muy blandito.. taba como in between.. perfect.. and crunchy.. man it was gooooood!!... y la salsita.. uff.. my god!.. esa funky salsita, que no se sabia que diablos era pero taba buenisima.. wow men.. wow.. I can literaly say that with every bite I had, I had a taste of a little piece of heaven.. =)

AY ABUELA MIA.. YO SI TE ADOROOOO!!!!.. MUA!!
TE LA COMISTE!!

:: NO HAY NADA MEJOR ::

No hay nada mas delicioso ni mas rico k caminar encueras en la casa de uno.. uff.. k delicia.. Y mejor es cuando llegas asi estropeado/a de la calle.. bien bien cansada.. entrar a tu habitacion con un plato bien grande de helado.. prender el aire.. quitarte todo ese peso de encima y puff!! atrerisar en esa cama con nada menos k el color del esmalte de tus uñas.. Que bien se siente.. =)