wring hands

You have polluted me..
My lungs are overflowing with ur words
and all I do is smother upon them
I want to.. can't..
I just want to scream

There's scotch all over my lips..
I'm overloaded yet I cant spill..
constant pressure.. pain..
I'm compressed by you..

I was infatuated by you..
You bewitched my senses..
enraptured my soul..
extiguished my exsitance..

Now I'm nothing..

I close my eyes and all I visualize are snap shots of our precious moments
and how I pulverized them..
I cant even talk.. without tasting a salted taste in my mouth..
I miss you so much.. so much..
I don't know how to deal with things like this..
normally I swallow it and strangle upon them
but this time I can't
all I do is spill
and I can't stop..

I ran out of lies to tell myself
of fairy tales.. and fables..
Reality has once again slapped me real hard in the face..
but this time.. I can't seem to get up..

I loved u so much.. so much..
but I guess that wasn't enough..
You needed a bit more..

When I was with you I was whole..
I felt secured.. safe.. I was invulnerable..
Nothing else in this world mattered.. only u and me..
but now I'm alone..
I feel like this little kid that has been abandoned by her parents..
and has nowhere to go.. no home..
I'm scared.. so scared..
Torn.. broken apart.. crestfallen..

I really thought we were a "forever"
that I had you..
that you were mine..
but I guess I was wrong..
I lost you..

and all I can do is watch as you sail by..
as unwanted tears overflow my face..
slowly put the pieces back together..
and try to rebuilt the broken pieces left behind..